I really do enjoy writing things down but this blogging thing is proving to be quite the challenge. I guess I'm just kind of afraid of revealing myself to much but since not many people even know this blog exists I guess it's a pretty safe place to vent frustrations, reveal fears and share the fun things that happen in life.
School (and by that I mean work) starts in two days and I can hardly wait. I like normalcy and a set schedule. I like having something I can count on and look forward to. I'm probably the only person the doesn't like Saturdays and summer breaks for the sole purpose that I hate having time to do nothing.
This year though I am starting a new project. I have worked at Sharon Elementary for about 5 years. Three years before the mission and now going in to my second since I've been home. I started working through the America Reads Program as a regular aide. This last year I worked as a Special Ed aide and really enjoyed it. It was a lot of work and a bit exausting but it was very rewarding not to mention the fact that I got out of the dreaded playground duty :) I was planning on going back to that this year but got a call from our principal with a new opportunity. I didn't really understand what I would be doing and still don't know exactly but I accepted on blind faith thinking that she was offering me something better. I will now be working for the Americorps Literacy Initiative.
This means that I will be recuiting volunteers, training them, collecting data, participating in many service projects and attending meetings and study groups. The scariest part is that I don't even now how do do all of that but instead of looking at the big picture I'll just take it day by day and hopefully it will all be okay.
To add to the stress of not knowing how that is all going to work I am also going to school full time. I had planned on finishing up my associates degree this fall and start the education program in spring but now. . . I guess I'll just finish up this semester, take some easy classes next semester to keep my financial aide and help raise my gpa. I'll give my all on the job this last year and pray that I will get accepted to the program for next fall.
Why am I willing to put off school for another year to work? This is going to look pretty good on my resume and will give me a $2,300 tuition credit next year. It's a huge blessing if I can keep my cool and do a good job. That would be why I'm totally freaked out, I have a history of not handling stress very well and in return always screwing things up.
Everything is always scarier and bigger in my imagination though so all I can do is do everything that is required of me and hope for the best. And remember to breath :)
