Wednesday, August 25, 2010

What Makes Me Tick

So I did this on Facebook once and thought it was really fun to think of random things people probably don't know about me. Although this blog is filled with a lot more intimate details of my life than are contained in this list I enjoy coming up with them anyway. I thought I'd start out with my favorite number, 85, and go from there. I kid! I wouldn't do that to you all in one post so here is 25.
1. I love rainy days and Mondays. 
2. I like playing things by ear but at the same time like to have a schedule
3. I love spring time but there is something comforting about fall
4. My biggest pet peeve is people that have no consideration for others
5. I like being talked into things because I love a good adventure but am too big of a wimp to do it on my own
6. How my handwriting looks is important to me. Bad handwriting drives me crazy
7. I love getting to know new people even though I'm not very good at it
8. I love shopping
9. I love old movies, especially anything with Cary Grant
10. If everyone likes something it usually turns me off and I won't like it even if I try
11. Ecuador has and always will have a special hold on my heart
12. I lack self confidence in pretty much any aspect of my life which I think is part of the reason why I have a hard talking loudly
13. I am a dreamer. Literally. I rarely have a night that I don't dream but I've never had a nightmare
14. I like people to be straight forward even though I will most definitely go home and cry. It is better to know where you stand than play the games
15. I have a major fear of hurting people's feelings or making them uncomfortable so unfortunately I'm not able to be as straight forward as I'd like to be
16. I am a hopeless romantic. I always look for and believe in a happy ending
17. I don't do very well in large groups, socially. I'm much better one on one
18. My favorite color is pink but I secretly love the color orange. The red-orange crayon is my favorite crayon in the box
19. My favorite flowers are tulips and daffodils
20. I have a very random memory. I can remember some things exactly how they were and other things not at all. For this reason I can't memorize things
21. My least favorite question people ask is about what kind of music I like. I honestly don't know! It depends on the song and I can't remember song names or artists for anything
22. I have never broken a bone but I have had stitches twice, one of which was after I caught my nose on a vacuum
23. I have phone phobia. I like getting phone calls but panic if I have to call any one, even my closest friends. That's why I love texting
24. I prefer hanging out with guys more than girls, less drama , more easy going random fun.
25. My favorite thing when I go to a restaurant is getting a fun drink

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Being a Missionary

So this last Sunday I had to give a talk in church. No big deal. I had three weeks to prepare it and actually find the process to be very enjoyable. I had done my prep work but when it came time to actually write it I was so wrapped up in a show which shall not be named (I've admitted my patheticness!) that it became the farthest thing from my mind. I did get it written but I had no idea how it turned out. I had no idea if it made sense, if it flowed, etc. I was so nervous!

Usually writing a talk is pretty easy and once sacrament meeting is over I'm done and move on. This must have been a message I needed to hear or something because I just keep thinking about it. Parts will run through my mind and I've even gone back and read it again. Nothing particular stands out to me so I don't know what it is but I thought I would share it with you all just for kicks and giggles. 

Sorry it's so long!

All growing up I had thought about serving a mission. I thought it would be really fun to go to a foreign country and learn another language. Unfortunately I also thought missionary work was one of the scariest things about the church. I didn’t like to open my mouth for most things but to open my month and share with a stranger something so personal as my testimony was out of the question! I was so glad girls were not required to serve missions! 

Like most things in life, Heavenly Father had other plans and sent me on a mission to the Ecuador Guayaquil South Mission. It was while I was in the MTC that I came to understand missionary work and learned to love it. That love continued to grow as I got to know, love and teach the people of Ecuador. 

If I had to sum up my mission with one word, it would be love. I’ve often thought how I could describe to someone who hasn’t served a mission what it feels like to be a missionary. It is like Heavenly Father says to you “Come” as you approach he puts his arm around you and says, “ I want to show you what I see!” 

Outside of a parent and child I imagine there isn’t as pure a love as the love we have for those we serve. We care about their lives, their happiness and want them to have the joy and peace of the gospel in their lives regardless of the situation they are in. That is why we serve. 

The great thing about the gospel is that it provides that same opportunity to all of us regardless if we serve full time missions or not. When we are baptized we make covenants with Heavenly Father that we “…are willing to mourn with those that mourn; yeah and comfort those that stand in need of comfort, and to stand as witnesses of God at all times and in all things and in all places…” 

Elder Holland tells this story: “A young returned missionary sister from Hong Kong told me recently that when she and her companion asked an investigator if she believed in God, the woman replied, ‘I didn’t until I met a member of your church and observed how she lived.’ What exemplary missionary work! Asking every member to be a missionary is not nearly as crucial as asking every member to be a member!” 

I can testify that this is true from my experience. After the initial shock of being called to Ecuador I became excited to be called to a place where I would meet people that had never heard of the church or of Joseph Smith. I quickly realized my mistake when nearly everyone we talked to knew who we were and knew something about the church. What came as a surprise to me was that they also knew which neighbors were members regardless if they were active or not. This both helped and hindered our work depending on how those members lived their lives. Keeping our covenants and living by the standards set for us we can become powerful instruments in the lords hand to do his work. Missionary work is not the sole responsibility of the full time missionaries. If it were, there would be very little progress. 

So what is our job and how do we accomplish it? 

Elder M. Russell Ballard tells us that the easiest and most effective way to share the gospel is by creating a gospel-sharing home. He teaches us how to do that by first explaining what a gospel sharing home is not. 

A gospel sharing home is not a program. It is a way of life. It means inviting friends and family into the ongoing flow of family and church activities. As we invite our friends to join us for these activities they will also feel the spirit. 

It does not mean that we are going to have to dedicate large amounts of time to meeting and cultivating friends with whom to share the gospel. These friends will come naturally into our lives, and if we are open about our membership in the church from the very beginning, we can easily bring gospel discussions into the relationship with very little risk of being misunderstood. Friends and acquaintances will accept that this is part of who we are, and they will feel free to ask questions. 

It is not defined by whether or not people join the Church as a result of our contact with them. Our opportunity and responsibility are to care, to share, to testify, to invite, and then to allow individuals to decide for themselves. We are blessed when we have invited them to consider the Restoration, regardless of the outcome. 

College age students can create a gospel-sharing home when they adorn the walls of their apartments with pictures that reflect spiritual pursuits instead of the things of the world. I believe we are all at the prime of our lives to do this work. We are constantly meeting new people and being social. Live your lives now so that through your countenance others may see the joy and peace that you have for being faithful members of the church. For having something that they would want in their own lives. 

A testimony is not just in our words it is more importantly in our actions. In D&C 62:3 we receive a promise for bearing our testimonies, “Nevertheless, ye are blessed, for the testimony which ye have borne is recorded in heaven for the angels to look upon; and they rejoice over you and your sins are forgiven you.” 

As well as bearing testimony I have come up with some other ways in which we may help in the work 

· Go out with the missionaries; if you don’t have a lot of time just give them a ride to an appointment. This saves them valuable time. 

· Give pass-a-long cards 

· Write your testimony in a Book of Mormon, give it to a friend or to the missionaries to give to an investigator 

· Give the missionaries a reference 

· Pray for leaders of countries where missionaries are not aloud yet that their hearts will be softened. 

· Befriend a less active member 

· Go about doing good 

· Be prepared to answer questions 

· With a less active or non-member friend visit temple square or drive past the temple. 

· Share an experience that helped your testimony 

· Pray for the missionaries 

· Be a friend! 

· Go visiting/home teaching 

· Pray for your own personal missionary experiences. Pray that they will find you. 

Prayerfully set a date to have someone prepared to meet with missionaries. He is preparing people and will put them in your path if you are prepared. 

· Open your mouth! 

The gospel is centered on the Atonement of our Lord and Savior. The Atonement provides the power to wash away sins, to heal, and to grant eternal life. All the imponderable blessings of the Atonement can be given only to those who live the principles and receive the ordinances of the gospel—faith in Jesus Christ, repentance, baptism, receiving the Holy Ghost, and enduring to the end. Our great missionary message to the world is that all mankind is invited to be rescued and to enter the fold of the Good Shepherd, even Jesus Christ. 

Our missionary message is strengthened by the knowledge of the Restoration. We know that God speaks to His prophets today, just as he did anciently. We also know that His gospel is administered with the power and authority of the restored priesthood. No other message has such great eternal significance to everyone living on the earth today. All of us need to teach this message to others with power and conviction. It is the still, small voice of the Holy Ghost that testifies through us of the miracle of the Restoration, but first we must open our mouths and testify. We must warn our neighbors. 

We truly are at war with those who mock God and shun the truth, so let us keep our covenants and heed our call to service. Let us marshal all of the Lord’s resources, including the power of our own testimonies. Let them be heard by many more people. Let the spirit of President Joseph F. Smith be in our hearts. Let us say, “I am ready to bear my testimony…at any time, or at any place, or in whatsoever circumstances I may be placed.” We must move forward with the promise that the Spirit will bless us to know what to do and what to say as we assist those who are seeking to know the truth. 

Missionary work is not just our duty but also one of the Lord’s sweetest blessings to be used in his service for the eternal welfare of our brothers and sisters. 



Sunday, August 22, 2010

Why I Love Michael Scofield

Well, I have come to embrace my addiction to Prison Break. I debated if it was something I was ready to admit to but here I am. This show has consumed a great deal of my time this week and as a result has me thinking about it a lot. I know it's make believe, trust me, but there is one reason specifically why I love this show. His name is Michael Scofield. He is the main character and putting aside the fact that he is exceptionally good looking I want to talk about his other exceptional qualities. 
He is the kind of person that cares about other people. He will do anything to protect those that he loves including sacrificing himself. He is a man of his word. He is good through and through. He is really smart and can pretty much do anything but never uses that to harm another person, even if that other person is his enemy. He can't stand to see others suffering.
He reminds me of my other favorite character, Robin Hood. Robin Hood had these qualities as well. Granted one of these men was a robber and the other a convicted felon but if more men existed today that shared some of these qualities the world wouldn't be such a bad place. 
I have a hard time with super heroes like Superman or Batman because even though flying and x-ray vision is pretty cool it doesn't really exist. But men like Robin Hood or Michael Scofield, I bet I can find a guy or two that really do exist that could compare. Men that go about doing good and have goodness radiating from their faces, now that's my kind of super hero! 

Thursday, August 19, 2010

What Is Wrong With Me!!

So, I have heard from several people about the show Prison Break. I've only heard good things about it so I thought I'd check it out. It came on Netflix as an instant watch so I started watching it while I was in Texas.   This genre of show is not something I watch ever so why I started now I have no idea. It was almost too intense for me. The problem was that there was some intrigue to it that of course drew me in and kept me watching. Mainly some pretty faces :) I watched the whole first season in two days because I became so tense that I didn't want it taking over my life any longer than that. I know I have a problem.
After that I told myself I was not going to keep watching it and it's been almost a month since then. I had even read about what happened in the coming seasons thinking that would satisfy my curiosity and keep me from watching it. Yeah right! Yesterday night I gave into temptation and started season two! Although at first it didn't seem as intense as season one that quickly changed and now I'm back on the edge of my seat. I need help!!!!
Last night I even had a bad dream that one of the escaped convicts (the one that really shouldn't have got out) had come to my school. I tried to play it cool cause I knew if he knew I knew that would be the end of me. So I wrote a note to the principal and excused myself to use the restroom. I ran to the office to give them my note so they could call the police with the least amount of suspicious behavior but he had come up behind me and grabbed the note. He had caught me and I was a dead man!! I never have bad dreams so why am I doing this to myself! What is wrong with me!!!!
So if you are reading this and have never watched Prison Break, don't start. It's good and that's the problem cause once your into it it's hard to stop. Maybe I can find a support group and get back to my English flicks and Cary Grant. Now that is safe territory!!


Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Disclaimer, Caution, or Warning, take your pick

I was feeling a need to explain myself a little. I don't usually blog when I have something exciting happen in life or I really have something to say (most of the time). Unfortunately I blog when I have nothing in particular to say but I just have a desire to write. Because of this, when I'm writing I have about a dozen thoughts running through my head and I have no idea which ones are coming out. When I'm finished with most of my posts I have no idea what it says, if it makes sense or if I've just embarrassed myself. 
I usually have to go back and reread it a day or two later and fix or delete things. The miracle of it is that I rarely have to do delete things. 
The reason I mention this is so you can understand my writing process cause most of the time when I'm finished I wonder if you all are going to think I'm crazy cause nothing makes sense. So consider yourselves warned and I won't worry anymore :)

Summer Time Blues:The Tale of a Flip-flopped Problem

Most of everyone I know suffers from the occasional blues in the cold wintry months when sunshine is scarce. Who ever heard of having the blues in the wonderful months of summer when sunshine is far and wide, and freedom is savored?!
The answer to that is sadly, me. I'm guess I'm not talking about real serious blues but my freedom is far from savored. There are many things that I love about summer time; laying on the grass, going up the canyon for picnics, my favorite holidays, etc. There is only one aspect of summer that I don't love and that is not having a schedule.
Don't get me wrong, it's great for a few weeks but then it's just not much fun. I'm the type that loves those cold dreary months because it brings purpose, busy schedules and above all friendship. I just need order and structure in my life, is that to much to ask :)
Now for all you people that actually stay busy and work hard throughout the summer, who are probably rolling your eyes about now at my patheticness this wasn't the intent of the post. I just wonder if there are people out there that suffer from can't-enjoy-it-while-you-got-it syndrome?
This summer hasn't really been that bad since I got to take my summer hiatus to Texas but every once in a while I feel those blues coming on. During these summer months Sundays and church become my favorite things. I actually get to socialize a little bit and that is the thing I savor above my vacation freedom. I would never have guessed but I actually like to be social now!
I guess I've been thinking about it because of how much I have loved my Sundays this summer and this last Sunday was a good one. After a long time I actually have responsibilities and new friendships. It really has been a long time and I am so excited for the opportunities that the next months have to offer.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

So Good

I was recently reintroduced to the movie Rigoletto. It's one of those movies that I watched when I was little and since then had totally forgot about it. I don't even know what made me remember it but I'm glad I did cause it is such a good movie. The music is fantastic and I have had it in my head for a week now. This is my favorite song so I thought I would share.

Home Again

I'm kind of disappointed in myself that here I have finally had some adventure in my life and I feel I have nothing to write. I guess nothing would be an exaggeration. I guess my problem is that I'm having a hard time finding the right words to describe the time that I spent in Texas. It's a fine line between being to dramatic and cheesy and not getting across how significant this trip was to me.
A little background information might you see why. I'm the kinda person that can never feel totally comfortable in new places with new people as welcome as they make me feel. I'm the kinda person that when I get tired I get ornery and annoyed pretty easily. It's like I take a few days to warm up, enjoy myself for a few more days and then am more than ready to be home. 
It is because of these personality quarks of mine that going to stay with other people for a month totally freaked me out. I just knew that I would wear out my welcome, that we would get on each other's nerves, and after a couple of weeks I would just be dying to get home.
I only mention all of this because the trip that I had was NOTHING like that! I felt at home from my first day and enjoyed every day. When time was up I was not wanting to leave. I loved Texas and hope that someday I may get to move there but what I really loved about the trip was getting to know family that I barely knew before. 
Chesney and I grew up on opposite sides of the country and aren't close in age. I had always enjoyed her company but we really never had much to do with each other. I would like to take a bold step here and say that now that we have spend a lot of time together I would consider her my new best friend.  
Being away from home leaves you completely on your own to make your decisions. Decisions based on what you want and what you want to be rather than on what you've always been and what you think people expect you to be. It's slightly frightening but extremely liberating. I find I like that person much better than the one I am at home and that's why being home is sad. 
I am not saying anything bad about home cause it really is a great place but life here is so predictable and stagnant. I could live my daily life with my eyes closed, no thinking no feeling, just doing. Life is suppose to be exciting and challenging. I'm not talking sky diving and last minute trips to Europe exciting but the excitement of new faces and places. A change of pace is never a bad thing.