"Delight In The Life You Have"

The title of this post is a quote from a talk given at a CES Fireside with Elder Dallin H. Oaks and his wife Kristen. She spoke to us young single adults as how she described herself, "the poster child of the single adults". She spoke about recognizing the blessing that this time in our life is even when it doesn't feel so blessed. Now is when we become the people that we want to be for the rest of our lives by the choices we make. We can't hang back and be angry or sad that our lives aren't we think they ought to be. If we aren't happy now we will never be happy in marriage. She spoke knowing this from experience because she was in her 50's when she married. The night of this fireside I feared that maybe she was talking to me that maybe just maybe it would be another 20-30 years before I would receive the blessings that I so wanted. Pushing aside the fear, I also felt she wasn't speaking to me in that point, that I would someday receive the blessings that I desired but if it so happened that I would have to wait longer than I would like, I would be okay.
Now I'm not saying that night changed my life. I quickly forgot the things that were taught that night and only remembered that I enjoyed the things that she had to say. But I have recently gone back and listened again to her talk and had the realization that what she taught was the exact transformation I needed in my life and that Heavenly Father had given me without my even realizing it.
I began to delight in the life I had when I moved to Logan and was surrounded by girls that quickly became my best friends, that taught me that life was great even though it wasn't always fun. If I have learned something the last year it is that life definitely isn't always easy and doesn't often go the way that we want it to but it can always be great. There can always be something to be grateful for and happy about. My life has certainly had it's trials and I have often wondered why what I wanted never seemed to be an option. But what has changed has been me and my expectations. Not giving up but looking to what I have control of in my life and making it worth while. My deepest desire is and will always be to be a wife and a mother. Giving up is not an option. I want to become a better me even if no one else cares or sees it.
So for the few of you that may read my blog I apologize that it has taken me so long to figure it out, that I have been so poor me for so long.  I have learned to "delight in the life" that I have, realizing I'm exactly where I'm suppose to be.